Re: How did you get interested?
I’ll try to keep this short. But for me it started at age 6 or 7.
I grew up in Brooklyn in the 1950’s – all the kids played in the street then: boys and girls. If you were an older boy, you were selected to play in “the game” that was going on in the street itself. That left various play groups on the sidewalk consisting of girls from about age 4 to about age 13 and boys from about 4 to about age 9.
These groups were universally run by an older girl. She provided “day care” for the younger children, so this arrangement was blessed by the moms and she had the authority of these moms. You listened to her and obeyed her or she’d report you to your mother who would back her up. The lead girl decided what games the group would play. Quite often these were girl-oriented games.
I was smart enough to know that I was living in a female-dominated world. Although men ran the big world out there, women (mom, aunts, teachers, baby-sitters and play group leaders) ran my world. Consequently, I developed a femdom fantasy even at that age.
I also, for reasons I can only speculate, had a rubber fetish. So my fantasy, to which I masturbated even at that age, was that a group of girls would “capture” me, take me to one of the basements, tie me up, strip me and then masturbate me with something made of rubber.
It helped if that rubber something was uniquely identified with girls. Among these were rubber balls (boys played with them too, but the games we played on the sidewalk were much tamer and there was even a bouncing alphabet rhyme game that only girls played), bathing caps (this is before hair dryers so they women and girls wore them the beach and were required to wear them in public pools) and, of course, Keds sneakers.
Keds were synonymous with sneakers for girls. Only girls wore them and every girl wore them. A mom would not tell her daughter to put on her sneakers, she’d tell her to put on her Keds.
About the only thing to add is the motivation for the girls in my fantasy. It made sense that it would be fun for them to capture a boy and strip him to see what he looked like and that if they rubbed him with a rubber object like the soles of their Keds, they could make him big and hard. I had to endow the girls in my fantasy with magical powers to keep rubbing me until I felt good. At that age, I did not know that there would be a much more visible sign of male orgasm. Once I figured that out, my fantasy was off and running.
It was not until I hit puberty that I was able to try any of these things out. I did “out” myself to Mrs. Mule after we were married. She’s accepts and supports my fetish.